Sometimes You Can't Shake it Off

I am in love with TaySwift's song, "Shake it Off." I could put it on repeat for days and never tire of foolishly dancing my heart out..... 

But, there are certain things you just can't shake off. I wholeheartedly wish that you could, Taylor Swift. I really do. 

Sometimes things affect us to our very core and we just never are quite the same again. Sometimes one moment starts a domino effect. I think it's safe to say that people get ruined sometimes, of no fault of their own. They get dragged through the dirt so many times and deal with such excruciatingly heartbreaking, real things.. That as much as they try as hard as they can, they just simply can't shake it off.

And I don't think it's a matter of strength, or willpower.. I mean honestly, I don't know what it IS a matter of, but it's certainly not a reflection or lack of desire to change or bounce back. 

I don't understand how this happens. I don't understand WHY this happens. I wish it didn't happen. Life has this way of leaving scars so deep that you can't shake them.

I know what you're thinking. Great, I'm going to feel like this forever. But that's not true. Maybe you can't shake that experience or feeling off. Maybe you can't just focus on someone's hella good hair. Maybe it cut too deep to ever truly heal, maybe that will follow you for the rest of your life. 

But you know what you do? You become so aware of this scar, that you build a sanctuary around it. You don't shake it off. You accept it in everything it is, and you build around it. You build your friendships stronger. Your relationships deeper. Your career brighter. 

And then one day, you've built a life so filled with love and happiness and every other emotion that you no longer worry about that one thing that won't go away, because it did.

It went away. 

It wasn't easy, and sometimes you send up a quick prayer because it slips in and crosses your mind, but that's it. You're living again, and in a round about way, maybe you did just need to shake it off, it just took a little more shimmy.